Loud

My head is so loud. the thought of him betrays me drive me crazy, makes me lose my mind. I can cope with this. it's either he died or I died. my escape now is sleep. I wanna sleep all fucking day so I don't have to think about it. I wanna scream at the bottom of my heart. it suffocating me. I've been trying so hard to be calm down these past few days. but then, I just found out my friend betrays me. she chooses to side and tell him my secrets. fuck I hate both of them until I feel like I need to kill them. they don't deserve my kindness.